1. |
Where Feelings Grow
02:20
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Empty, I feel empty
I wanna tell you why but I don’t know.
Empty, just empty
I wanna tell you why but I’ve no clue.
When it comes down to it around to it I’m broke.
On the face of it, make of it a joke.
Faulty, I feel faulty.
Could have sworn I worked before but now I don’t.
Guilty, I feel guilty,
Tangled up inside and nothing helps.
When it comes down to it around to it I’m just
Ashamed of it, afraid that I’m messed up.
And it’s a different kind of heartache -
I think I took the stronger kind.
It’s covered over where feelings grow,
Left me stranded away from home.
Empty, I feel empty.
I wanna tell you why but I don’t know.
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2. |
Toxic
03:16
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For the last year I've lived in no-man's land.
Struggled to reconcile everyday life with the musings of the brain;
Conflicting realities each side of the eyeballs.
And then I realised...
My own company is toxic.
Let me breathe the air I will forget.
Let me breathe inside my head.
This is not a resolution,
Maybe more a revolution.
Cancel all evaluation
I'm focusing on evolution.
Last year came and last year left,
Spent itself on devolution.
Unhealthy dose of devaluation,
Some would say of infatuation with me,
Of the girl inside this skin- she's like a disease.
Really wish she'd quit bothering me.
Because my own company is toxic.
Let me breathe the air I will forget.
Let me breathe inside my head.
Help me God to find the Trojan
Protect myself from incoming invasion.
I never thought they would find a reason
But now they've gone and brought the whole battalion.
Don't want money and don't want fame,
Just want you to run my brain.
Root out the devil inside-
Chase her from the places she hides in me.
I want to be a light that shines eternally.
Screaming: I want you, take me!
Because my own company is toxic.
Let me breathe the air I will forget.
Let me breathe inside my head.
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Right thing, wrong thing, just come out with something
Big thing, small thing, but now they started listening.
Tripping, fumbling, fear creeping, crawling,
Sneaking, peeking, but no one else is counting.
No one else is counting.
Faces talking all around, more bitter potions can’t be found
'Cause I breathe the same – a human shape
But something snapped inside of me and
I just can’t face the faces.
I just can’t face the faces.
This thing, that thing, all I hear is mumbling.
Breaking, falling, somehow I am drowning?!
Tearing, swearing, one is too much company
So why am I here shouting, shouting, shouting…
When no one else is counting?
Faces talking all around, more bitter potions can’t be found
Cause I breathe the same – a human shape
But something snapped inside of me and
I just can’t face the faces.
I just can’t face the faces.
So show me yours
And I’ll show you mine.
But be warned
I may run and hide.
I can’t take much
Or else I blow
I’m TNT
Just waiting to go….
But no one else is counting.
Faces talking all around, more bitter potions can’t be found
Cause I breathe the same – a human shape
But something snapped inside of me and
I just can’t face the faces.
I just can’t face the faces.
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4. |
Original Human
03:34
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I am burning chemicals
Let’s not get too clinical
But turns out I’m original human too.
And something about you
Makes part of me want you
And I don’t know why but I can’t deny the truth.
Maybe I’m just lonely
Missing out on friends
Biology telling me that I’m just one of them.
Natural instincts clinched it
Now extinct
And I’m taking back control.
I am burning chemicals
Let’s not get too clinical
But turns out I’m original human too.
And something about you
Makes part of me want you
And I don’t know why but I can’t deny the truth.
Sometimes it’s too easy
To forget the lines
When the world’s telling you what’s wrong and right.
They say ‘embrace it, face it
It’s yours to take’
But I’m giving back control.
I am burning chemicals
Let’s not get too clinical
But turns out I’m original human too.
And something about you
Makes part of me want you
And I don’t know why but I can’t deny the truth.
Human’s fractured
Human’s faulty
Human’s buggy
Human’s ugly
Human’s messy
Human’s crazy
Can I get the upgrade?
Human’s clueless
Human’s useless
Human’s heavy
Human’s deadly
Human’s stupid
Human’s deluded
Can I get the upgrade,
So that I never look away?
I am burning chemicals
Let’s not get too clinical
But turns out I’m original human too.
And something about you
Makes part of me want you
And I don’t know why but I can’t deny the truth.
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5. |
House Song
01:56
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The walls are crumbling
I can't feel the ceiling
And I wish I had air in my lungs.
Started with screaming
But I pushed through the feelings
And now I make chaos for fun.
Standing
In the ruins
Of somebody else's castle.
They're gone
It's mine now
And the bare walls dance as we wave good bye now bye now bye now.
Peeling back layers
Of paper-backed prayers
And a history I played no part.
Knocking out nails
'Til order prevails
Constructing our new work of art.
Standing
In the ruins
Of somebody else's castle.
They're gone
It's mine now
And the bare walls dance as we wave good bye now bye now, hi now.
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6. |
gods
02:22
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gods: making everything happen and giving us reason our
gods: sitting over us through us and with us among us our
gods: they hold you too.
For me it's time- I can't get it out of mind
It grows I show I don't have the courage
To find a way to break its hold.
gods: making everything happen and giving us reason our
gods: sitting over us through us and with us among us our
gods: they hold you too.
Wake up! We're blind! Too dead to see our
Insides go black as reason gets stabbed in the
It burns and severs every line.
gods: making everything happen and giving us reason our
gods: sitting over us through us and with us among us our
gods: they hold you too.
Love: it's the be all and end all we live for it silly just
Love: but we don't quite consider just how it arrived in our
hearts.
You know it's true.
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7. |
Cry
03:35
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I can't take it.
When I lose, fake it.
Surround the places
With long lost faces.
'Cause I know how to try
Know how to lie
And one day I might cry.
I have made it-
Pain no object.
A frozen heartbeat
My stone cold blanket.
'Cause I know how to try
Know how to lie
And one day I might cry.
I thought I was fine with a knife in my back,
A bullet through the head,
But a spring in my step.
And sometimes you find you can keep up the act
When they don't check the facts,
No they don't check the facts.
Oh, I thought I was fine,
But don't check inside
You don't have the time.
'Cause I know how to try
Know how to lie
And one day I might...
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8. |
One Part
03:43
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Sometimes I wish for a cage -
Somewhere to put her away.
Somewhere to be seen but not to be heard.
Someone please lock her away.
What’s the use in a brain that sees you as prey?
Torture, abuse thrown my way?
Where’s the hope in a song when the head gets it wrong?
It just had one part to play.
Right now I’m craving the void
Silence where screams have no voice.
Unravel my senses til life runs its course
Surrender my time by choice.
What’s the use in a brain that sees you as prey?
Torture, abuse thrown my way?
Where’s the hope in a song when the head gets it wrong?
It just had one part to play.
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9. |
Don't Know Why I'm Here
02:39
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Don’t know why I’m here-
Don’t want to face this.
Don’t want to remember
What a mess I made.
I dreamed about you-
I dreamed I made it right;
Explained how it hurts
To know I hurt you.
Oh it’s painful to think
Forever I’ll live
In ignorance bliss.
Cos oh I left it all wrong
Words dropped like a bomb
And now you’ve moved on.
Don’t know why I’m here-
Don’t want to write a song.
Just want to forget
Forget and move on.
Perhaps you forgot?
Perhaps you don’t care?
Memories are vague I’ll admit, but my brain fills the gaps with despair.
Oh it’s painful to think
Forever I’ll live
In ignorance bliss.
Cos oh I left it all wrong
Words dropped like a bomb
And now you’ve moved on.
Don’t know why I’m here-
Don’t want to face this.
Don’t want to remember
What a mess I made.
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Emily Fox UK
Emily discovered the guitar at the age of 15 and never looked back. Some years on and she now has three self-produced albums
under her belt, over 100 YouTube videos on her channel, and even a performance at the Royal Albert Hall to her name.
By day Emily is a software developer/tech lead for a UK-based software company.
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