Where Feelings Grow

by Emily Fox

/
  • Streaming + Download

    Includes unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more.

    For just £1 extra, you can also get a copy of Real (my previous release) - just choose to pay £5+, drop me a message at emily@emilyfoxmusic.co.uk, and I'll send you a download code!
    Purchasable with gift card

      £3 GBP  or more

     

  • Compact Disc (CD) + Digital Album

    Comes in a 100% recycled Kraft wallet.

    SPECIAL OFFER: for just £1 more I'll throw in Real (my previous release) - just choose to pay £6+ and let me know at checkout. I'll send you both physical CDs, plus a download code for Real.

    Includes unlimited streaming of Where Feelings Grow via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more.
    ships out within 5 days

      £5 GBP or more 

     

1.
Empty, I feel empty I wanna tell you why but I don’t know. Empty, just empty I wanna tell you why but I’ve no clue. When it comes down to it around to it I’m broke. On the face of it, make of it a joke. Faulty, I feel faulty. Could have sworn I worked before but now I don’t. Guilty, I feel guilty, Tangled up inside and nothing helps. When it comes down to it around to it I’m just Ashamed of it, afraid that I’m messed up. And it’s a different kind of heartache - I think I took the stronger kind. It’s covered over where feelings grow, Left me stranded away from home. Empty, I feel empty. I wanna tell you why but I don’t know.
2.
Toxic 03:16
For the last year I've lived in no-man's land. Struggled to reconcile everyday life with the musings of the brain; Conflicting realities each side of the eyeballs. And then I realised... My own company is toxic. Let me breathe the air I will forget. Let me breathe inside my head. This is not a resolution, Maybe more a revolution. Cancel all evaluation I'm focusing on evolution. Last year came and last year left, Spent itself on devolution. Unhealthy dose of devaluation, Some would say of infatuation with me, Of the girl inside this skin- she's like a disease. Really wish she'd quit bothering me. Because my own company is toxic. Let me breathe the air I will forget. Let me breathe inside my head. Help me God to find the Trojan Protect myself from incoming invasion. I never thought they would find a reason But now they've gone and brought the whole battalion. Don't want money and don't want fame, Just want you to run my brain. Root out the devil inside- Chase her from the places she hides in me. I want to be a light that shines eternally. Screaming: I want you, take me! Because my own company is toxic. Let me breathe the air I will forget. Let me breathe inside my head.
3.
Right thing, wrong thing, just come out with something Big thing, small thing, but now they started listening. Tripping, fumbling, fear creeping, crawling, Sneaking, peeking, but no one else is counting. No one else is counting. Faces talking all around, more bitter potions can’t be found 'Cause I breathe the same – a human shape But something snapped inside of me and I just can’t face the faces. I just can’t face the faces. This thing, that thing, all I hear is mumbling. Breaking, falling, somehow I am drowning?! Tearing, swearing, one is too much company So why am I here shouting, shouting, shouting… When no one else is counting? Faces talking all around, more bitter potions can’t be found Cause I breathe the same – a human shape But something snapped inside of me and I just can’t face the faces. I just can’t face the faces. So show me yours And I’ll show you mine. But be warned I may run and hide. I can’t take much Or else I blow I’m TNT Just waiting to go…. But no one else is counting. Faces talking all around, more bitter potions can’t be found Cause I breathe the same – a human shape But something snapped inside of me and I just can’t face the faces. I just can’t face the faces.
4.
I am burning chemicals Let’s not get too clinical But turns out I’m original human too. And something about you Makes part of me want you And I don’t know why but I can’t deny the truth. Maybe I’m just lonely Missing out on friends Biology telling me that I’m just one of them. Natural instincts clinched it Now extinct And I’m taking back control. I am burning chemicals Let’s not get too clinical But turns out I’m original human too. And something about you Makes part of me want you And I don’t know why but I can’t deny the truth. Sometimes it’s too easy To forget the lines When the world’s telling you what’s wrong and right. They say ‘embrace it, face it It’s yours to take’ But I’m giving back control. I am burning chemicals Let’s not get too clinical But turns out I’m original human too. And something about you Makes part of me want you And I don’t know why but I can’t deny the truth. Human’s fractured Human’s faulty Human’s buggy Human’s ugly Human’s messy Human’s crazy Can I get the upgrade? Human’s clueless Human’s useless Human’s heavy Human’s deadly Human’s stupid Human’s deluded Can I get the upgrade, So that I never look away? I am burning chemicals Let’s not get too clinical But turns out I’m original human too. And something about you Makes part of me want you And I don’t know why but I can’t deny the truth.
5.
House Song 01:56
The walls are crumbling I can't feel the ceiling And I wish I had air in my lungs. Started with screaming But I pushed through the feelings And now I make chaos for fun. Standing In the ruins Of somebody else's castle. They're gone It's mine now And the bare walls dance as we wave good bye now bye now bye now. Peeling back layers Of paper-backed prayers And a history I played no part. Knocking out nails 'Til order prevails Constructing our new work of art. Standing In the ruins Of somebody else's castle. They're gone It's mine now And the bare walls dance as we wave good bye now bye now, hi now.
6.
gods 02:22
gods: making everything happen and giving us reason our gods: sitting over us through us and with us among us our gods: they hold you too. For me it's time- I can't get it out of mind It grows I show I don't have the courage To find a way to break its hold. gods: making everything happen and giving us reason our gods: sitting over us through us and with us among us our gods: they hold you too. Wake up! We're blind! Too dead to see our Insides go black as reason gets stabbed in the It burns and severs every line. gods: making everything happen and giving us reason our gods: sitting over us through us and with us among us our gods: they hold you too. Love: it's the be all and end all we live for it silly just Love: but we don't quite consider just how it arrived in our hearts. You know it's true.
7.
Cry 03:35
I can't take it. When I lose, fake it. Surround the places With long lost faces. 'Cause I know how to try Know how to lie And one day I might cry. I have made it- Pain no object. A frozen heartbeat My stone cold blanket. 'Cause I know how to try Know how to lie And one day I might cry. I thought I was fine with a knife in my back, A bullet through the head, But a spring in my step. And sometimes you find you can keep up the act When they don't check the facts, No they don't check the facts. Oh, I thought I was fine, But don't check inside You don't have the time. 'Cause I know how to try Know how to lie And one day I might...
8.
One Part 03:43
Sometimes I wish for a cage - Somewhere to put her away. Somewhere to be seen but not to be heard. Someone please lock her away. What’s the use in a brain that sees you as prey? Torture, abuse thrown my way? Where’s the hope in a song when the head gets it wrong? It just had one part to play. Right now I’m craving the void Silence where screams have no voice. Unravel my senses til life runs its course Surrender my time by choice. What’s the use in a brain that sees you as prey? Torture, abuse thrown my way? Where’s the hope in a song when the head gets it wrong? It just had one part to play.
9.
Don’t know why I’m here- Don’t want to face this. Don’t want to remember What a mess I made. I dreamed about you- I dreamed I made it right; Explained how it hurts To know I hurt you. Oh it’s painful to think Forever I’ll live In ignorance bliss. Cos oh I left it all wrong Words dropped like a bomb And now you’ve moved on. Don’t know why I’m here- Don’t want to write a song. Just want to forget Forget and move on. Perhaps you forgot? Perhaps you don’t care? Memories are vague I’ll admit, but my brain fills the gaps with despair. Oh it’s painful to think Forever I’ll live In ignorance bliss. Cos oh I left it all wrong Words dropped like a bomb And now you’ve moved on. Don’t know why I’m here- Don’t want to face this. Don’t want to remember What a mess I made.

credits

released October 2, 2020

All songs written, performed, recorded, mixed and mastered by Emily Fox. Artwork by Emily Fox. This work is released under the Attribution-NonCommercial-ShareAlike 4.0 International (CC BY-NC-SA 4.0) licence. All software used in production is free and open source.

Special shout out to Michael K for lending me his ears and giving me feedback on the initial masters.

Sound effects from soundbible.com, either in the public domain or licensed under the Attribution-3.0 (CC BY 3.0) licence.

Attribution:
soundbible.com/1571-Fishtank-Bubbles-2.html
soundbible.com/1308-Fizzle.html
soundbible.com/1185-Old-Sub-Sonar.html
soundbible.com/1193-Robot-Machine.html
soundbible.com/1320-Short-Circuit.html
soundbible.com/1820-Take-picture.html

license

tags

about

Emily Fox UK

Emily discovered the guitar at the age of 15 and never looked back. Some years on and she now has three self-produced albums under her belt, over 100 YouTube videos on her channel, and even a performance at the Royal Albert Hall to her name.

By day Emily is a software developer/tech lead for a UK-based software company.
... more

contact / help

Contact Emily Fox

Streaming and
Download help

Shipping and returns

Redeem code

Report this album or account

Emily Fox recommends:

If you like Emily Fox, you may also like: